7.31.2011

life happens.

first off. happy shark week! 

disclaimer this post is churchy.

last week was a big week in the life of Jacqueline Ball. i have realized i only blog when i have a lot of random thoughts i just want to get off my chest. i apologize that all of my posts lately have been like this, but i find it amusing and pretty therapeutic. so i guess that was a very insincere apology.

turning 21 is a big deal and should be celebrated in a very big fashion. with the age change comes also a fun treat. the DMV. the 2 times i have been here have been memorable to say the least. first visit was excitement because i was turning the sweet 16 and finally getting my license. due to my excitement of finally being of the dating age, i did not realize who i was surrounded by. i was purely worried about making sure my picture was not terrible...it was going to be on my license for the next 4 years. this round was a bit different. i was not accompanied by my sweet madre (doing adult errands stinks!) i wasn't super excited about spending the next 2 hours in this hot room surrounded by salt lake's classiest crew on my day off. i will say it did make me very grateful for who i am, my life, and my job ( i could not imagine being there EVERY day) it also made me appreciate the fact that the back of my legs are not covered with cottage cheese...and if that day comes i'm appreciative of the fact that i am wise enough to cover them with appropriate clothing...no matter how hot it is outside. even though i have already decided to hate this place, i must say my lady who renewed my license was very pleasant. now that i have been rude, the whole time i was there i just felt sad. looking around the room i just felt love and pain for these people i did not know. it breaks my heart when i am surrounded by people i know do not have the gospel in there life. 

i love cache valley. this is no secret. anyone who knows me at all knows i have a deep desire to find myself some cache valley boy who will move me up there for life. i would be so happy. there are many reasons i love this small part of heaven, but a major reason is porcupine dam. since this has been shown to me, i feel like it should be an annual summer event in my life. every summer from here on out should include a trip to porcupine to jump off some cliffs. i had last friday off and decided to try and get a group of people together to go up there. after getting denied like crazy i found a poor boy who agreed to come with me, and bring some of his friends. my ears are still recovering, but i love it so much! 

being 21, not married, and still in school i am getting the mission question a lot. this is something i have prayerfully considered for the last 6 months. after a lot of sincere prayer and fasting i have received an answer. for some reason there is something that is keeping me here. can't wait to see what the Lord has in store for me. recently i have this huge desire to serve. i'm sure i have blogged about this before. i was on a run with one of my good friends a few months ago. she has just recently returned home from her mission. talking with her made me realize a large part of why i am here. we are all the Lords children. i sincerely want to be an instrument for him. i want to be able to do whatever it is he asks of me. after this run i have tried taking small steps to make this possible. i dont know why i am getting the answer that nows not the time for me to serve a mision, because i do have the desire to do so. all i know is i am trying to find any opportunity to help others where i am. even though i dont have a tag i still get to be apart of my Father's work. i love this gospel.  the closer i draw to my Heavenly Father and Christ, the more love i feel towards his children.